Today it fell off the table and broke into a million pieces.
I could feel it rising in me. SERIOUSLY??? Of all peices to break in this nativity set... the baby JESUS!!!???
It certainly wasn't an expensive trinket but it was one I had grown fond of over the years. I started looking for super glue and ANALYZING all the pieces to see if repair was on the horizon. Attempt one I Glued my fingers together. Attempt two I couldn't make the pieces fit. Attempt three, with glue stained fingerprints, I set the ceramic piece upright with a gaping hole in the back. Maybe?? (crumble...). Nope... that's not going to be strong enough to hold up under it's own weight. Time for hot glue. No that's too thick. I start looking for options to make this thing work. I'm just so wanting to help all the pieces fit back together. I just want it to be the way it was - to look right. Come on Jesus - hold it together!!
Isn't that it? Sometimes are we just desperate for Jesus to hold it all together? The holidays accentuate the fact that sometimes the pieces just don't fit all back together nicely. We take our holiday smiles out of the box once a year, dust them off and hope they polish up nicely on THE shelf for the month so we can quietly stuff it back in paper for the next eleven. We position them purposely so that no one sees the gaping hole in THE back or notices the layers of glue in the cracks.
Sometimes a broken Jesus is just what we need. We need a cracked and broken picture to remind us that we are not alone. Jesus came to a cracked and broken world that was COMPLETELY falling apart at the seams and offered to stretch his arms out and break himself for us so he could hold it all TOGETHER.
Once we've been broken, things don't Go back together quite the same. Sure our lives can heal but there is always a scar - hidden or exposed - that reminds us of the break. Jesus has them too. He sees your name inscribed on his hands every day.
It's ok to let your breaks show. It's ok not to hide the cracks and the glue and the holes. Let him use all of that for the benefit of the kingdom and to remind us of his great love for us.
I MAINTAIN. I'D RATHER BE RANSACKED AND HAVE HIM PUT ME IN SHAMBLES FOR MY GOOD AND TO EXPERIENCE HIS FULLNESS THAN TO BE SPARKLY CLEAN IN THE UNEXCEPTIONAL.
This Christmas, I'm proudly putting my precious broken jesus figure on display. While he remains perfect, this trinket reminds me that even in the Cracks of my world, he is God with us - Emmanuel. Come Lord Jesus, Hold us all together.
Tara is Greg's girl, mom to two sons of thunder, a hunger fighter, big dreamer and worship pastor at seacoast church.